Monday, August 21, 2006
Bollywood song
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Where is Ramar Pillai?
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Vande Mataram

Today's India's Independence day! We are 59 years old now. Despite all the cynicism and apprehensions on where we are headed, it's time to look back. We have definitely progressed - may be not as fast as Ashoka's chakra is supposed to have - but still we won freedom on this day. The famous Tryst with destiny was delivered by Nehru on this day.
Independence day could mean so many different things to different kinds and types of people. To many poor people, it might not just mean anything. To the poor and unaware, it might not even make sense. To the ultra-rich, it means a day to recover from last night's hangover. To the political class, it's day to deliver big promises of words and garlands on the thousands statutes. To the Armed forces, it's a day of pride and hoisting the tricolour. To the middle class child, it means a proud moment at school and a little sweet distribution.
The day means different to various people because the country or the nation itself means so many different things. But one thing in common to all people, who live in the country, who were born in the country, who have even visited the country - India is this nearness to life! It's this land of uncertainity - a roller coaster ride. It can take you up on a such high one moment only to drop you down to feel like an inward spiral. It's a land of enormous beauty and charming people, to a country mis-governed and wronged by so many rulers.
The day is to remember the sacrifice of a generation - of Gandhi's leadership and Nehru's statesmanship and of all the millions of grand fathers and grand mothers who gave their everything to see the light at the end of the tunnel of foreign rule. Parts of Northern India(Delhi region) were free for the first time in 800 years on this day!
Saulte to the motherland! Vande Mataram!
Friday, August 11, 2006
Zen and the art of network maintenance
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Happy birthday Singapura
I managed to read Lee Kuan Yew's book - "From third world to first world". It's the story of transformation of a sleepy British outpost from a near nation of slums to what Singapore is today - a real first world country. In fact, in my opinion, it's ahead of most first world countries in a lot of respects!
So today was a holiday. I decided to work from school. When I was walking in school, it felt good to be back to student life. In the past month and a half I've been back in the corporate world. The comparison between school life and corporate life is striking. We have had the chance to sample both during this one exciting year in INSEAD. In fact Pooja's got to sample to two companies and a school!
Corporate life is the same old - lot of cynical people, challenging any new thought saying - "Yeah! what's he going to do that I didn't try earlier!". There are no real synergies between divisions, departments, regions and markets. School life is just the opposite. There are discussions and opinions floating around so much - everyone has a solution to every problem!
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Being Vegetarian
Luckily there are one or two Buddhist places in the foodcourts where they serve vegetarian food - which is definitely edible, but not too very tasty. Taste and fragrance are very subjective matters, I agree! It's a bit unfortunate that I get to try only Indian and Italian food in the whole of Singapore. But the Indian food here is yummy - pretty much like how it's made back home - and more importantly available in plenty.
This led me to think of why am I a vegetarian. I am a vegetarian by upbringing - my parents and folks do not eat meat. As a child I always thought that people who ate meat became like the animals they ate. Somehow, the same concept of people eating plants becoming trees never occured to me then. But, anyway childhood aside - at different points in my life I have come in close encounter with meat eating. Again there used to be a time when I couldn't stand the smell of meat - fish especially. Now, as survival becomes more important, I can even remove the stuff from my plate and eat the rest. But I still can't eat meat. I once chewed into a chicken piece in salad. Now, I think that's the most cruel thing a chef can do - put a chicken piece into an otherwise vegetable looking salad! I somehow tried to chew it up and said to myself that I would somehow swallow this one! But I just had to run to the loo to throw it out.
There are different types of vegetarians - spiritual, psychological, health and vegans of course! I am by upbringing a spiritual vegetarian - which means I was always told that meat eating is not good. Then I guess I have become a psychological vegetarian now. Even as I was chewing that piece of chicken in my mouth - I could here the slaughter and screaming of a poor unsuspecting bird. I once mentioned this to a buddhist friend and he told me I was very lucky to be able to be able to 'feel' for life. I don't know why I feel for life.
The other argument is what I read in Anand Bhavan in Little India, Singapore. The restaurant has a whole wall dedicated to explaining the concept of vegetarian. There's a quote from Thiruvalluvar on the wall explaining why man should be vegetarian.
Then there is the intestine and stomach comparison. The intestine of humans is long resembling that of a horse or cow. Predators on the other hand have small intestines because they do not want meat to rot in the tummy. The acid levels in carnivores is also 20 times more than that of the herbiovores. We are pretty close to the herbivores again.
The final argument is that of instinct. If you gave a child that has just developed teeth, an apple and a chicken - the kid would automatically eat into the apple and play with the chicken. If you did the same thing with a cat, the cat would eat into the chicken! That explains how by physiology we might be herbivores. Then there are these arguments like - we drink water more like horse and cows by sipping; whereas carnivores put their tongue out to lick water! Again, pretty convincing.
A lot of people keep asking what percentage of India is vegetarian. To be honest, it's so difficult to generalize about the whole of India. Again many are vegetarian by religion, many by economics! So I would guess it's around 20-30%. Atleast in the south, especially in Karnataka I think there are a lot of vegetarians.
I also read that if the amount of land used in growing crops to feed livestock was put to use to grow vegetables and crops, we would not have to destroy any more forests! There will be enough grains to feed everyone in the world. I really hope that the movement for vegetarian food grows. A lot of times, I am shocked on seeing what all people eat - and they seem enjoy and relish the taste! How long is it before we become cannibals? Afterall, human flesh is also food - who knows may be it tastes really good :-(
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Killing myself with Caffeine
I lead the life of a normal working man in Singapore. I use the MRT to commute to work. I walk 10 minutes in the sweaty sun to reach the station. I can stand in a packed commuter train to reach one station - change lines to another train and reach the destination station. I then walk another 10 minutes to reach office.
Office is like any indoor place in Singapore - freezing cold. They all have some tie up with wool manufacturers in the world. There are two seasons in Singapore - inside and outside. Inside is cold and freezing - they probably maintain it at some 15 degrees. Outside is like any other coastal city in the equatorial region - hot and humid. Evenings are better - windy and pleasant.
I sit in office with a lot of data to mine. I need some data and I don't need some. I need to use my brain. I feel happy about that part. But I feel scared I may not deliver. No bright ideas have struck me yet. But I kill myself with Caffeine. I eat biscuits and cookies - as if they would funnel into my brain and give it some energy. Am I really dumb - I wonder!
I look at the news - when I see what's happened in Mumbai - I get angry. I read a lot about India. A lot more than I used to when I lived in Bangalore. I feel happy for the country - its people are awesome. We do so much in spite of so many obstacles- those created by external and internal forces. I pray and hope for the billion countrymen that we find our way in the world.
I switched on the news channels the other evening - watching live pictures from Mumbai. My friends use the trains all the time. It could have been one of them. Luckily, all near and dear ones are fine. But, what's in the mindless killing?
I see the contrast in people from developed countries. People in Singapore have no clue what terrorism means. We did this project on terrorism in the last period. A bunch from Germany, France, Singapore and us - two Indians. They thought terrorism meant Al-qaeda. I told them what we've been through. They still don't understand. These people are most worried about the destination for fishing, the weather in that destination and of course football. I think of the millions of people who have much more basic questions - will I live to see tomorrow? I know so many of my Kashmiri friends - they were thrown out of their homes. They were told to leave by the loud speakers from the mosques. They were told to leave if they wanted to live. They are refugees in their own country.
Back to sipping my caffeine - I need all the luck in the world. Going by where the world's headed, there isn't much luck left in the world! Okay - let's go out in search for extra-terrestrial luck. Let's spread the scum ...
Friday, June 30, 2006
Okhil Babu's letter
I got this forward from a friend.
Okhil Chandra Sen wrote this letter to the Sahibganj divisional railway office in 1909. It is on display at the
Okhil Babu's letter to the Railway Department :
"I am arrive by passenger train Ahmedpur station and my belly is too much swelling with jackfruit. I am therefore went to privy. Just I doing the nuisance that guard making whistle blow for train to go off and I am running with 'lotah' in one hand and 'dhoti' in the next when I am fall over and expose all my shocking to man and female women on plateform. I am got leaved at Ahmedpur station.
This too much bad, if passenger go to make dung that dam guard not wait train five minutes for him. I am therefore pray your honour to make big fine on that guard for public sake. Otherwise I am making big report to papers."
Any guesses why this letter was of historic value?
It apparently led to the introduction of toilets on trains in
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Pallavi Anupallavi
Among other good things in the movie was the music of Illayaraja. The guy was a true genius. The best song from the movie is called 'Naguva nayana'. This is a must listen - it melts my heart every time I listen to it!
http://www.kannadaaudio.com/Songs/Moviewise/P/PallaviAnupallavi/NaguvaNayana.ram
Sunday, June 18, 2006
Sri Lanka in war
The one war that disturbs me personally is the Sri Lankan civil war. The Tamil tigers(LTTE) are back in action. The Sri Lankan army must be a greater terrorist organization as they don't mind bombing hospitals, churches and civilian areas.
I have fond memories related to Sri Lanka from my childhood. Our neighbours in Pondicherry are of Sri Lankan origin. They are Catholic Tamils from the city of Jaffna. Back in the 80s, India was still confused as to what it wanted to be - a socialistic democracy was the intended destination. Sri Lanka on the other hand was far more developed socially. Social indices such as literacy, life expectancy and capitalistic economy were more towards the South East Asian model rather than the South Asian poverty paradox. I remember my neighbours visiting Ceylon and bringing back gifts for the neighbours and kids in the entire locality. I had a soft ball and a puzzle book from Ceylon as gifts from them at different times.
Rupavahini is the official TV channel of the Sri Lankan state. We had three antennae on our terrace - one for local DD, one for Madras DD and one for Rupavahini. The quality of the Ceylon TV programmes was much better than our own DD's Krishi drashan and magic shows. I remember watching 'Woody wood pecker' on Ceylon TV and would be in awe of what quality programmes are shown there.
That was also the time the entire LTTE movement started gaining ground. There were supposed to have been some training grounds for the LTTE around the woods around Pondicherry. There was a huge amount of sympathy for the Tamil cause - because of the horror stories of suppression by the Sinhalese majority of the minority Tamils in the north and east of the tiny country.
India's own stand was that of sympathy for a long time until the Rajiv Gandhi murder in 1991. Well, that has a lot to do with further muddling in politics by the not-so-great-visionaries of the Nehru-Gandhi family in India.
India's experience in the late 80s made it a very silent spectator of the entire Sri Lankan fiasco. In my opinion, we should have taken much more active interest in the whole issue. It's one thing not to interfere in another country's affairs, but it definitely affects us in a big way. To see what I'm saying, just a visit to the refugee camps in Rameshwaram or Point Calimere would give a perspective on the burning issue there.
Sri Lanka lost a golden chance to resolve the crisis - but the turning point again was the election of the Sinhala hardliners in the Govt. Mahendra Rajapakse is a hawk - and with a terrorist leader like Prabhakaran - it's only expected that the situation would get worse. Today, India will face another refugee crisis. The north and east of Ceylon will go through another ethnic cleansing by both parties.
Those cherished days of a prosperous Sri Lanka where they showed woody wood pecker will just remain a dream. It's funny to see how two countries deal with minorities. In India we go overboard to make sure everything is okay for them from the Govt point of view. In Ceylon, votes are won on the basis of who is more oppressive. And all this is under a so-called Buddhist Govt? This confirms the theory that religion has nothing to do with the agenda of oppressive Govts and even more brutal terrorist organizations.
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Missing Bangalore
Also chanced upon some snaps of the blooms in Bangalore - felt very nostalgic about the cool crisp air, the blooms of the Gulmohars, the tabebuois and the flame of the forest. A trip to Lalbagh and you can see the nagalinga pushpa. The last time I saw that flower was in Phnom Penh in Cambodia. The hot idly breakfast - though it is possible to have that in Little India here. The walk in DRDO colony to head to expose ourselves to the sun ... Hmmm... have to get back to Macroeconomics now. Enjoy the picture of Lalbagh from last monsoon.
Thursday, June 08, 2006
Knock, knock! Who's there?
Ben Bernake has a bit too much in his magic wand. What he says and what he breathes is interpreted, mis-interpreted and re-interpreted depending on whether one is a bear or a bull. The inverted yield curve from 4 months back is gone now. But the signs of confusion are more than visible. Emerging markets like India depend so much on temporary FIIs. This is an awesome video by Columbia guys on how much lies in Bernake's control : http://dealbook.blogs.nytimes.com/?p=2478
The real problem also seems to be with inflation. With oil climbing skyscrapers, it's unlikely that this shock will not slowdown the economy. Historical evidence shows that similar shocks have always resulted in a slowdown. How much does the economy slowdown, determines if there's a recession or not. Anyway, it's a bad time to be in b-school waiting for the big jobs to be made. With inflation, people postpone consumption, which leads to loss of jobs and business downstream and this in turn fuels further slowdown. The govt must react with cutting down interest rates immediately, and encourage consumption so that the economy downstream heats up and propels the engine forward.
What does recession mean to a country like India? To begin with, lower job creation. We've been such fools in not carrying the economic reforms ahead. The left parties always hold back reforms and the Congress Govt itself does not make any bold moves with a puppet PM in place. What it means for b-school would be graduates like us is - possible unemployment! Really hope that doesn't happen.
We are living in some of the most interesting times in the world. The landscape of the world is getting altered like crazy all over. It's only a question of time now when Bush is thrown out of office - China's becoming more powerful and just when Japan is recovering from a long period of deflation and recession, the world's heading the same way again. Latin America and Africa are own their trip!
Anyway, coming back to the topic, the only way out now is some tough talking and action by Bernake and his tribesmen in all countries and hope for the best. Rest is up there!
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Salaam Singapura
Our first week in Singapore was quite traumatic! We were really tired, we couldn't see much vegetarian food food - we saw these massive electronics malls with food courts that had dead ducks hanging all around the walls.... Disgusting - was the only way we described the place. But gradually, when things started falling in place - one starts we started to appreciate the way this place works.
Imagine an immigration authority that welcome you with a smile. Asks your normal questions unlike the stiff upper lipped white man asking " Why have you come to the united States?". "What business brings you to Belgium?". The city-state is really green - the harmony between development and greenary is unmatched, atleast compared to poorer parts of Asia. The air is clean and there's public transport that keeps people connected in a human way. The multi-racial society accepts Indians in particular and any foreigner in general, in an objective manner. The taxis work day and night are so affordable. Just the efficiency of the place takes care of everyday daily activities. And then, you get the time to think of more strategic things for the business or academics! Now that is what is attractive about this place.
Take the story of good vegetarian food. There are plenty of Indian vegeterian restaunarnts in the city. And very affordable even as a staudent. There are movies running at 1 AM everyday. There is no crime at all. Even a woman can walk back home late in the night! The weather is a bit humid and hot - but you can't have everything. The air-conditioners take care of these comforts. Overall, I think it's an amazing place to live in! The regualr rains remind me so much of Bangalore ... imagine Bangalore without the traffic and the pollution ... Yes - Salaam Singapura!
Random bambling
So many thoughts crowded in that grey matter! Whatever, is there of it!
The roller coaster is still on. Who is a friend, who is not a friend, who is nice, who is not nice? Why is someone nice or why is someone not nice? What wrong did I do? What wrong did I say? A multitude of questions, multiple answers … human psychology is insane, perverted and complex! I am sensitive, should I be more sensitive, should I just ignore and lead my own life? Another set of rambling mumblings! There’s so much shit happening in this world. So many people dying as I write so many wars for god-alone-knows-what happening in every nook and corner of the world. The other side of the spectrum, people talk about parties, about how their weekend was – damnit! I don’t want to know!Should we be cynical and let the world be should we say “No – I’m going to change this world!” Likes, dislikes – endless possibilities, and multiple combinations. What do I want to do, where do I want to be, am I a leader, am I a follower- questions, questions and more questions! Should I think abstract, should it be more solid. Questions pounding the head, questions pounding the brain …. Will return to pound the head and use the brain!
Thursday, June 01, 2006
One step forward, two steps back!
Yesterday, in class there was a discussion on the corelation between democracy and prosperity as measured as GDP per capita. There seemed to a fair corelation in most of the world. The outliers were - Singapore, Hong Kong , UAE on the upside. But the loner exception on the downside was India. It pains when you see that everwhere else where there is freedom and democracy, there is prosperity - but not in my beloved country.
Theories to explain the anomaly? May be culturally, we never wanted to improve. May be we are just not ambitious enough a people! The other theory can be that inequality has been created as a result of the caste system. That people have been suppressed for centuries and this is the way they think of life! Whatever the explanation, I would really like to see us go with the rest of the world and converge to the line of corelation. I really wish it does ...
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
It's the last Compre :-)
Compre is a term in BITSian parlance meaning – exam. It actually stands for comprehensive exam. And like everything else in Bits, it has a nice convenient shortened version. What we are going through in INSEAD makes one feel philosophical. Sometimes, you lose focus of the end goal and get lost in the world of doesn’t matters! Well, I know I’m making no sense here – but I shall type where my fingers take me.
Coming back to the last compre phenomenon - we had this thing in BITS wherein the last compre was always neglected in terms of studies because everyone’s excited about going home from a God forsaken desert. Back to the niceties of getting pampered by parents and getting some rest and peace of mind. And guess what, INSEAD is turning out to be exactly like that in those terms. But unfortunately we’re all grown up adults now and the break is over before you even sleep through it!
Hopefully, this will also kick start my ability to write down and document things. Like I’ve always maintained, it’s so important to that in life – I think that’s where we Indians lost out – we forgot to document. It’s the chronicle of experiences that’s nice to go to later and have a laugh over. I’m also going to be playing in a basketball game tomorrow. That’s also not happened for a while now!
Till then …. Back to studies!
Cheers
Thursday, April 13, 2006
Life's tough! But we're ok :-)
So that’s the new mantra or slogan to keep ourselves calm at b-school! There are so many ways one could get stressed in an environment like this. There’s the whole ordeal of cultural diversity and socializing … trust me it’s not that easy. Especially with the kind and quality of social events, it’s a tough life out here.
Then there’s this whole thing with summer internships. I have got dinged by everyone so far... not one interview call! I was supposed to be a smart guy. But I’m hoping that our day will also come. The work load is pretty crazy – I find myself toggling between studies, applications to companies, networking with peers and alumni – and the list goes on. So it’s tough to do all at the same time … but you still got to do the best of the 43 500 Euros L.
Among other things at school, we are making a few friends too. A few... Mind you! The importance of networking is driven and nailed into the head repeatedly and I understand why now. Okay – this was one scrambled attempt at bogging after a long gap. May be I will be in a better state of mind the next time I feel like bogging … and hopefully my mind’s also clearer than the way it’s behaving now!
Thursday, March 09, 2006
One period over
So we completed 1 period today with our last exams getting over today. It was a big dejavu only far more intense and the chances of failing are BIG. We have this weird system of a z-curve in which the mean is at the center and up to to 3 std deviations on either side is tolerated. Beyond that we have to repeat the course :((. The exams were tough and competitive and we still have no clue where we stand in the class. It's very highly likely that I might fail in 2/5 courses - but who knows if somebody screwed up more than me, then may be I'm saved!
So it's time to relax now. We're off to Cambodia for the break - Angkor Watt specifically will be our main destination. I've been dreaming of going there since class 9 I think. It's the largest temple in ruins in the world. Just google on the name - it has very huge Indian influence. That is in fact one thing I've observed in South east Asia - the influence of Indian culture and languages is huge all over. Bali is a Hindu majority state in Indonesia where you find names like Yudhishtir and Pandav even now - where as these names don't exist in India any more!
Anyway back to the topic, end of period - lots of new resolutions taken and lots will be forgotten soon :). It's that time when you sit back and reflect on what went right and what we did wrong. This MBA is a big step, I repeat. It's not a joke to be in with people with such varied experiences - with people who have worked on the stuff your learning in class.
Saturday, February 18, 2006
Hello again, Blogworld!
Sorry for the break in my communication. Pooja and I are both in INSEAD now. We started session on Jan 9th, 2006. It's been a life shaking experience since then. We're slowly coming out of the shock!
Okay - imagine you are in a cozy little tent by the river side. You know that you can't live just by the side of the river and never even venture into it. You know that the river will be cold. It's a Himalayan river after all! You know that you can't sit in your cozy little tent all your life. You decide to shake up and wake up and prepare for your venture into the mighty Ganges. So you start arranging for the logistics, prepare yourself mentally.
But when the time for the plunge actually arrives, and you take the plunge - you feel the cold. You are mentally prepared but still reality bites! The river's flowing at an alraming pace - it's icy cold! People who've been ther before are doing much better than you. Your raft is going through rapids and rocks and beaches. The river's flowing downstream, there's no way you can row against the current and get back upstream!
MBA is the same story. So those of you sitting by the shores and waiting for God-alone-knows-what, think about it! The river's calling .. Can you hear it? May be you won't hear me that often while I'm in the river.
Log off for now - but promise to be back soon.
Cheers
Duncan
Monday, December 26, 2005
The last month
The first thing I remember that happened last month was that INSEAD gave me also an admit!! So that puts to rest the huge question of how we were going to deal with separation. It was the happiest day in our lives :)). So then, we celebrated with a nice dinner and beer at Rice Bowl on Lavelle Road. Immediately after the celebrations, it was time to start working on all kinds of things. Sale of items at home, the loans, the tickets and so on and so on. The list is endless!! We are now in shape to leave in 10 days' time. It's been one really hectic journey.
The financing was the biggest question mark. An angel came in the form of Deepthi - my cousin who lives in the US now. She agreed to co-sign a loan from IEFC for me. There was a point in time when we wondered if it was worth putting in all the effort of convincing the Adcom that I'm worth it - whether it the MBA is only for really rich people from the really rich countries. It's amazing there are organisations like IEFC and there are people like Deepthi :).
Next thing was to sell all the stuff at home. We are going to completely shift out of Bangalore - move to Singapore. The B-school dream. And that too, in our dream B-school, INSEAD. There is one problem in this compared to IIMA. It was so easy to tell folks and friends in India, that I had an admit from IIMA. But, INSEAD needed explanantion and riders stating that it is ranked No.6 in the world! And then even tougher, convincing them that the 'investment' was worth it. One thing we always wondered, was the way people ranted about their b-school experience. What did they mean by it? Well, since we're almost there, we'll experience it ourselves!!
Office work seems to be in control. But, I'm going to be working till Jan 4th next year. Yes, I need every paisa possible. This b-school is costly. Every b-school outside India is costly. Someday, we'll work on a loan scheme that's available right here in our doorsteps in India. I'm also going to be taking every other loan available in town - we need to live and eat too :)
We've also been having people over to enable them to say Goodbye to us and wish us luck. We need all the luck in the world! We're entering this new unknown world. But there's one thing out there - the Brand and the experience. Singapore's going to be different. It's not like India, it's not going to be like US or Europe - it's a different combination of peoples.
There's no TV at home. Life without the idiot box is difficult. We just realized how much of a stress buster this TV is. Especially missing some good cricket action .. The very idea that you give control of your mind to something else, something external - that's how the TV watching works!
Then set in this huge inertia. I haven't blogged in a while! So it I decided it was time to convert the inertia of rest to ineria of motion. So hopefully, I will blog regularly for the next few days :)