My wife loves me! I love her! One aspect of life that's not changed. She gives me love therapy - I feel alright when the balm is love is given. I feel happy ... but then, like a blood sucking snake takes me deep down again ... I am depressed .. nothing matters .. everything matters ...
That's not what it should sound like. We have both almost paid off the debt from the last big adventure - the MBA. That's a good time record within which we have done it. We both have permanent jobs now.
But ..... I am depressed! Nothing matters .. I don't feel like going to office ... I'm not excited by anything ... In my previous group, I thought I had done a good job - but, guess what - nobody cares! Not a sparrow's fart's worth of rememberance by people! It's as if nothing happened for the last one year. Some people who matter seem to convey otherwise, but in effect nothing!
I'm reaching stage of mental sickness. At work, I sit in a corner and read. Discovering a whole new world. That whole new world does not matter. IPL is going great on TV - but the idiots in this country telecast it recorded at 1 AM every day!
I need an oil dipping, sole searching ... it's not right! I shouldn't be feeling so worthless!!
